mY MOoooooOD

It is 2.55am as I start this post. My bedtime is normally around 3am or 4am since I get up at 10am in the morning, but I can’t sleep and figured I’d blog about why I can’t sleep while the feelings are still fresh in my head.

You may know that I have been in the examination mood. Before the final exam, I did not spend and manage my time for studies correctly. The worst thing was I used to skip classes and even IF I attended, I never pay attention during the lecture. Some guidelines on how to study effectively where I used during the high school were taking notes, use abbreviations, and ask question and make good comments for the pro n cons in the application task. But it seems I did not USE this technique on my studies during the university life. For current semester, I am taking three tough subjects. I HATE DIC and VLSI with the STUPID UNFRIENDLY Intel workstation DA and IC software since the lab is only providing 10 licenses for 50 (VLSI students) and 80 (DIC students) in the whole semester. The thing make’em felt so sad were both the coursework marks, sigh~.

Back to the studies table, I keep trying, trying hard on it. I read actively. Because I believe, if you read without thinking, I guarantee that your mind will eventually wander off, your eyes will eventually glaze over, and you will fall asleep. Before the presentation of the Final Year Project, I did plan and make a study outline. I had a paper yesterday morning. It seemed fine and hopefully I would receive good grade after the next three/four weeks.

How do I know when I have studied enough during the preparation on exam? It’s not when I felt tired of studying! And it is not when I had gone through the studying material one time! I stopped when I get to the point that I feel confident and ready for whatever will be on the exam… the next coming paper will be on 18/5, VLSI subject, and the very last paper will be on 22/5, fabrication processing subject. I hope I could able to get good grade on this final! Dear TinGong, Popi me!!!

My negative feelings are welling up inside of me. There are so many things, so many materials, so many notes, so many tutorials, so many lectures slides where I have to pay attention with! What about my time, will that be enough for me on preparing it? Sigh~

Now it’s 3.11am and I still need to get up at 9am today for printing out the FYP Hardcover for my supervisor. I have to get back my bed and have a pleasant sleeping time now. All in all, a really upsetting evening for me when I really surprised for the coursework mark I received from both subjects! If I were more emotional like Phei, Peilin, Siewchi or either Ross, I would probably be crying!